What does UP mean to me?

United Playaz was described to me by one of my students as "a gang against gangs", and I was curious about what that meant.  I now understand that we are sometimes seen as a gang, because we have unconditional, family love for one another, that goes deeper than the way we're used to connecting with people in a place like school.  When I became a member of UP, I was dealing with my father's heart attack and being far away, unable to ask questions in the hospital room or laugh with him when he tried to convince the family to bring beer into the hospital.  An inability to be there for my own family was the catalyst to get me to finally start going to meetings.

I am close to my family, the people who share my blood, but I am also close to my family, the people who share my vision.  I may look different from you, may reap the privilege that my skin affords me, but I am here to try to give YOU voice.  This is not about me.  So I'm writing what UP means to me, but I'd like your stories to be the focus of the blog, because this is YOURS.

UP has become a part of my soul, and it is what I teach, despite my need to also prepare you to jump through the hoops that the institution has set up for you.  I want to teach you to work the system, but not to rely on it, because we have our own solutions and we are powerful.  I learn more from you on a daily basis than I can ever hope to teach you, but I am humbled by these lessons, and I come back to teaching each day, each week, each month, each year, with a renewed sense of being an eternal student, with hoping to learn and grow even more.

I guess what I'm saying that UP is my family, it is my island sisters, and my US Muziq brothers, my Young Fresh and Conscious cousins, my Banana Kelly children, my Bronx Letters founders, the lovely two souls I have birthed myself.  UP is a melding of all of my worlds, it is youth becoming the teachers and showing us how we will solve the violence in our communities, because we deserve and must make better happen.   I am so blessed to be here learning from you; to me, UP means your success, however you define that for yourselves.

-Lauren Fardig-Diop
one of the chapter founders